only I can say how I truly feel, and you know how I feel. but, sometimes words can't fully describe emotions from the heart. It hurts to be lonely and left so far behind from you. sometimes I was left without words that couldnt reach you. in a instant my existance was merely forgotten. why does the pain linger inside when I feel nothing but happiness? no it wasent you, but the pain from another, each scar left unrepaired to cause a greater hurt, I wanted to pass on. suddenly in your eyes I saw the reason to live and you showed me more to life then what was on the plate before me. only this is the past present and future, I cant say that I never loved you, even if I see you to me it will feel like I was always there just not in the flesh. but spiritually I feel like I can feel your pain from the distance. and know what your thinking just at looking at your picture. I only wish to understand you more, and walk by your side and make you smile.. you make me feel alive. and you make me strive to imporve myself as a person... right now I am curled into a ball wishing you were here and make my pain of being alone disappear in an istant... lonliness is the only thing that hurts me more right now. I can only have a fake smile on my face and pretend to be strong, but now I just walk through the halls of my college emotionless.. trying to hide my pain. and avoiding others around me...why cant I wish myself there? I will never know how you truely make me feel until you are here and I am there. you will understand someday... for now just think of me, and that will give me some hope to be by your side.... in the end it was all becuase of you.